A song that I currently fancy..

Songs that I currently fancy..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UVNT4wvIGY

Expectations

Just looking at that word and I can be terrified, scared to death.

Expectations. Have you ever expected anything from someone, or something? Why would you expect someone to do something? Why do you put so much trust in someone?

I am not going to point my fingers to some particular people, but there are definitely a lot of people who expect me to do something, to achieve something, to behave in a particular way.

Why?

Don't you know that expecting something from someone actually puts a heavy burden on their shoulder? Why I know, don't even ask. I am just too tired to behave in a way that satisfies other people, my family, my friends, or just some strangers that I don't even have any slightest ideas about them.

"Oh, you should man up and be a gentleman", "You have to get a good grade, be a businessman, and make a good network", and "Why would you worry, you will definitely get an A on that class" are just some examples of people's expectations on me.

Do you even know how hard it is to fulfill all of those expectations? Do you even know what I sacrifice to please all of you? I lost my satisfactions, time, and myself. Yes, I feel like I am fooling myself and losing any control on myself. I feel like I let other people drive me, and I am just a passenger in a car.

This is my life, so just shut up and deal with your own life. Even if you are my family, there is a fine line between caring and intervening one's life, and I think all people already crossed that line

long before I even realized. Why would I even let them control me? I have no idea. Probably because I am so used to letting others take care of me and I start losing myself.

Just because I am smart, you cannot expect me to study 24/7 or get a good grade every single time. Don't you even know how hard I study to get to this point? So just stop saying "You are lucky because you are smart", because I work my ass off to be smart.

Just because I am a guy, you cannot expect me to do anything. I am me, and I get to decide what I want to be. I loathe, for lack of better words, girls who just easily say, "you're a guy, you're supposed to be the one to do this". You expect me to be able to cook and carry all of your stuffs, and I can tell you I ain't your superman.

Just because I am quiet and I always listen to other people, do NOT ever act like you're my boss and tell me to do this and that. I am quiet not because I am weak or I don't have any opinions, but it is just a matter of me trying my best to avoid conflicts and dramas. So, when you start talking like "here's what you're gonna do, you're gonna do this and that", I am silently planning your murder in my mind. Oh, that last sentence is a hyperbole, don't take it seriously.

Since when the society becomes so judgmental? Since when did adult lose their innocence and naivety? Don't you remember how beautiful that time was, when you could just wear anything you like and acted the way you wanted, and no one even gave a damn about it at all? Since when Prada and Gucci became the wall that separate us, old childhood friends who used to play in the yard together? People expect you to wear "branded" clothing if you want to be seen as a bourgeoisie, but you never know why you did it. You just did, and now you are trapped inside. Why?

So guys, stop expecting too much on other people and give them some time and space for them to be who they are, because no one wants to carry handicapped bags weighing 500 pounds everyday in order to survive in the society.

Kevin

Fix You

Here's a video of me doing "Fix You" by Coldplay! I really like the song and I think Coldplay sings it beautifully! So, enjoy!!

Valentine's Day

This is a process essay I wrote for my English class. Since I thought it was Valentine's Day, I might as well write something about it. So, there you have it! I'm sorry if there are some grammatical errors in it, since I did not proof-read it carefully. LOL. Enjoy!

Valentine’s Day is the day when people commercialize love and couples around the world share the premises of everlasting love, which later transforms into a complete lie. It is the day the chocolate factories and florists are waiting for, as they anticipate triple of their monthly revenue in a single day. It is a sacred day for most couples who have been anticipating for marriage, for the old grandpas and grandmas who have shared life together over decades, and for teenage lovers who are ready to resign from the Big V club. Conversely, some people recognize Valentine’s Day as the “Single-Awareness” day. It is the day when all singles around the world are coming to the realization that they have either no chocolates or flowers on their table. It is the day when people start being insecure about their attitudes and looks, as they are currently riding solo. For those who are fresh from a break-up with their exes, Valentine’s Day only lights their flame of fury and drowns them into the trench of sadness. While for those who have not found the “right” one, it is just another annual free pass to the tragic romance world. I have been single since the moment I was born in the world, and due to my lifetime experiences of counseling on my friends’ relationship, I believe I am credible enough to share my processes of transforming tears of loneliness into joyful smile on Valentine’s Day.

Before Valentine’s Day even begins, there are some things that you need to do to prevent regrets in the future. Making sure that the chosen one is the correct person to spend your Valentine’s Day with is essential. Before you even plan on having a romantic candle-lit dinner on the seashore or booking a movie theater for a special Valentine’s Day movie, decide whether they really deserve all the spending and effort you put into the romantic occasion. Especially, if you are planning to take your relationship into the next level, be extra cautious, because this day might be your biggest remorse for the rest of your life. The higher rate of suicide on Valentine’s Day is no laughing matter. Remember all the things you have gone through together and use your rational judgment to decide if s/he is the right one, not the Mr. Know-It-All. I want to emphasize the word rational because I have a lot of friends telling how they still love their significant other after they have treated them like White people treated African-Americans before the civil right era. Some people say that love is blind and it can drive you crazy, but my example before is just a whole new level of idiocy. Do NOT take my advices if you really enjoy crying on the corner of your room and ripping Teddy Bears apart on Valentine’s Day.

Since the result of your pre-Valentine’s brainstorming may go in different directions, I need to make two different suggestions for each group of people. For those who just have the epiphanies of love, you probably want to plan something special with your loved ones on Valentine’s Day. I suggest that you plan something completely outside the box to impress the person of your dream and win their hearts. Your future lover will feel that you put a lot of efforts into them the more creative your plan is. Chocolate on the desk or red roses with a happy-Valentine’s-Day card on it in the morning are too cliché. Do something ridiculous, something you have never seen before. However, you have to ensure that your original ideas are not overly insane, unromantic, and dramatic. For examples, jumping out of the plane holding I-love-you sign is a bit too much, or making your lover mad in the morning will only turn them off. In order to give your lover a taste of heaven, you have to know what they like and what they do not like. If you are aware that your loved one is afraid of darkness, you probably would like to avoid dark places. A perfect romantic date needs a perfect romantic setup, and you and your lover are the ones who decide whether something is a romantic fairy tale or a beautiful nightmare. Furthermore, you also need to make a budget plan after you decide what your dream date is. You can have the most brilliant idea for romantic dinner, but your idea must be realistically affordable. After you have all the preparation completed, the next thing to do is to implement those ideas and create a magical night that both of you will remember for the rest of your life.

For those singles who do not have a valentine, you probably would not want to spend the entire day wondering what things you could do differently if you had a hot chick or cute boyfriend. You must not want to be sad and feel alone all day long because you have not received heart-shaped chocolates from anyone. Here’s my advice. Avoid wishful thinking about romance and do something fun with your friends and families. To not think about Valentine’s Day at all, make yourself busy with something useful and productive. As an example, working on your essays and doing your homework on Valentine’s Day is a great idea to banish the miserable feeling of being alone. Not only that you escape the torture wheel, you also get a good grade in school. It is a win-win situation! If you think that staying at home writing papers is more pathetic and depressing than watching “My Bloody Valentines” alone on Valentine’s Day, do something enjoyable with your friends or families. However, make sure you do not ever let your friends talk about how their girlfriends or boyfriends sang to them romantic songs in the morning. Trust me, it only makes things worse. The next step, avoid places that reasonably become the designated places for lovers to boast their romantic sides. Chocolate and flower shops, movie theaters, and romantic restaurants are a big no-no. The sights of couples holding hands or French kissing only makes you want to hear Adele’s “Someone Like You”. Finally, avoid direct contacts with the soulless monster who just broke your heart right before Valentine’s Day. Do not ever think twice about sending the I-miss-you or Happy-Valentine’s-Day texts, because not only that they show you are dependent on these jerks, those kind of texts can also instantly destroy the water dam you built in your eyes.

Valentine’s Day is a day full of love, not hatreds, and everybody deserves a chance for love. Although some people believe that love should be expressed on Valentine’s Day through chocolate or diamond rings, I believe that love does not only last for a single day and it does not have to be symbolized and measured with physical things. Love is a mutual feeling that connects two individuals with deep connections without exact measurement. In addition, love does not always have to be between you and your boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, or wife. It is a universal feeling that can be shared to your parents, brothers, sisters, friends, and even your pets. So, erase the hate words on your diary and share your love to everyone! After all, if you feel that you are worthless because you get no chocolates or flowers on Valentine’s Day, it does not mean that no one loves you. People around you are wise enough to think that their love for you is priceless and nothing compares to their love for you. Have a happy Valentine’s Day everyone!